But I won't live here anymore.
This will become, "where I grew up," "my home-town." It won't be where I live, or "my town."
Part of me is very okay with that. Part of me is looking at it logically; I have to move away, and I want to move away. This should be a positive. Here is why it's a negative: because it's happening.
It.
Me. The School.
It's happening.
I can't stop it. I can accept it, and embrace it. (I'm giving myself a hell of a lot of slack on the embracing part.)
The deal is, I have to August until I know who I will be living with for the next nine months. Then I have until September to learn to like her (or them.)
I am BEYOND anxious. I (thank God) don't think about it everyday. But when I do, I think about EV-ER-RY-THING. All the could happen- the bad stuff, the good stuff. (See that? Being hopeful. And it's all driving me up. a. wall. I know that I cannot know what will happen in August or September, or hell, January. But it doesn't stop me from wondering.
I just keep telling myself: I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.
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