Right, well I am trying.
It is hard. It is hard because I don't want to hate it. I don't want to be unhappy, or unsatisfied, or just... this. I don't want this.
But this, this is what I have got.
I am trying so hard to make the best of it. I am trying so hard to find the silver linings, the bright sides, the fun stuff.
The thing is, it sucks, hard.
It is hard to feel happy. It is hard to find that joy. It is easier to sleep. It is easier to let it all slip over me. It is easier to say, "I give up. I quit. I am done with this."
For now, I am resolving to keep trying to try. I am just going to hold on. Because, when it comes down to it, it is for me. I need to try for me.
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